T_T hav been crying once i'm alone today..... i donno wads wrong... tears drops during noon time when i'm at home... n now it's arnd 10.30pm.... crying again..... why am i still upset... hw much more time do i still need b4 the pain will cease..................~~~
feel so left out........ feel soooooo......... *undescribable* no wher i could lean on........我的坚强还剩多少？！？！？they are back together.....?? i shud be happy for him.... but why am i crying nw?!??!~~ after all these while, i tot i doesnt care anymoreeee.... i tot it wont affect me no more..... or probably all these while i've been trying hard to stop myself frm thinking, frm crying... so nw is time to release my depression............?!?!?
i've been persuading n telling myself all these while.... he is a worthless person for me love... but when i found out sth, why do i still get upset...~?!?!? isnt it as wat i shud hav expect n known??!?!? visions blurry......... aint gonna think.... aint gonna think!!!!!! *helpless*..... 是我在自欺欺人吗？？？早该知道，最终被遗忘的人会是我！！！真的好累。。。。。如今的我对人，已经没有信心了。。很怕，很怕再次被伤害。。。真的再也承受不起！！！T_________T
recently i'm thinking of resigning... but was being rejected......... it has been bothering me... i hope to start my new job by mid of April..... today start a fren of mine will be down to kb work.... mayb once in a while then come back up bsb..... less one companion d..... =(
probably all these while i'm still hoping he wud turn back n see........... hoping he hav a lil guilt n a feel of regret.... but wat he saw wasnt me...... nt even a flash i gez..... i knw clearly nw tat i dnt stand even a corner~~~~~ feel soooo silly...... but mayb coz i chose to be the silly one!!! =S 让一切随风而去吧。。。再也没有权利去在乎些什么了。。。 even thou tears n pain n memories is still hunting me.... but i believe one day the pain will fade out...............~~~ one day sth else will cover it up.......~~ jia you!!!!!!
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